Since freshman year, I’ve had a really hard time dealing with high school and the many uphill battles it throws at you during such an awkward time in your life. During those days, I always hoped that I would find my place and really start living, just like everyone says you’re supposed to do. However, I don’t really think that I have or will find my place in high school.
I just don’t really think high school is the "thing" for me. I’ve watched friends change, move, and surprise me in more ways than one. I’ve dealt with hard classes, feeling alone, and just wishing that these four years would end.
On a positive note, I feel really confident in the idea of college. I’m really excited to move onto that next step.
Considering I only have a few weeks left, I’ve really been reflecting on all that I have been through these past four years. I can’t say that I’m not proud of myself for being where I am today. I’ve accomplished some really awesome things. Being apart of Blue Jay Journal TV has been a big part of that. As cheesy as it sounds, I really don’t know where I would be without it.
As I look toward the future, I’m not scared. I’m really excited to work towards my goals and become the person that I want to be. I’m ready to go to Mizzou and meet new people outside of this town. I think that it would be a completely different scenario if I actually enjoyed high school, so I’m glad that I’m not hanging on and that I’m not unprepared to leave.
Whether you are a freshman or senior, know that it is completely OK to not be in love with high school. If you’re anything like me, the unnecessary drama and unfulfilling friendships are more draining than not fitting in at all, and that is totally okay.
Do what makes you happy and work your hardest to get through these four years. They may not be your favorite, but the hard work and time you invest in yourself will pay off. And hey, remember, no one wants to peak in high school ;-)
Until next time,