People typically make assumptions that girls are really emotional and cry all the time, but I can say that is definitely not true, for me at least. If you know me, you know I’m not the most emotional person. I really struggle to convey my feelings. Pretty frequently I have people tell me that I’m heartless or self-centered because I typically don’t over express my feelings (like a lot of people tend to). The truth is it's the complete opposite. I care so much about others and I’m always putting others before myself. Just because I don't wear my heart on my sleeve doesn't mean I do not have one.
When I’m in an emotional situation, I have a tendency to shut down. I’m a very guarded person and when I’m in situations that I don’t know how to handle, I just shut down. I’d much rather let all my feelings out alone, in the comfort of my own room. For some reason I’m terrified of the vulnerability of showing people that side of me.
In 2019 I hope to be able to break down those walls and show people that yes, I really am human and I can be sad, angry, or upset about something.