I like to think that I have it all together all of the time. I know exactly what I am doing in school, in the future, and that I have everything planned out. The reality is that I honestly have no clue what I am doing 99% of the time (oops).
If you know me, you know that I can be all over the place a LOT. I am not really the greatest with words, and sometimes I say the wrong things. The truth is that I don’t always have myself put together. Because of this, it often leads me to wonder what my purpose is.
Unfortunately, I get stuck in a mindset that isn't necessarily good for me. I think that because I am not put together and looking or acting a certain way all of the time, that means that I can’t do something productive or meaningful with myself. It can be extremely easy for me start thinking that because I make things messy, that means I can't make use of them. Because I am messy, it makes me unable to reach people and make a difference. Ultimately, I know none of these thoughts are true.
It has taken me awhile to accept that I don’t always have to be put together, and no one else is 100% "with it" either. I am definitely still a work in progress and will be for a very long time. I have realized it’s okay to be a hot mess some of the time! I can find a way to relate and connect with other people through the parts of myself that aren’t perfect or composed. My messes make me the unique individual that I am today. I don’t have to know what to say every time, and it’s okay when I laugh a little too loud, make a weird joke, or awkwardly dance while life goes on around me.
Focusing on making other people feel happy, heard, and welcome is my purpose in life, at least for now. I find a deep sense of purpose when building relationships with others, whether that be just in a quick conversation between class, an interview for a story, or physically sitting down and opening up with others on a personal level.
The messiness that makes up me is just a part of who I am. I hope that everyone can utilize some of their own messy parts to find a purpose for themselves like I have.
See you later,
Woohoo Netflix! I love this TV streaming service! Does it sometimes get very much in the way of things I need to get done? Yes. Will I still continue using the service? Yes.
One reason why I enjoy Netflix is the fact that besides the shows available to watch that are from other broadcasting companies, they have an entire collection of shows, movies, or documentaries that are only available exclusively on Netflix, called Netflix Originals. These are my favorites because there is such a variety of things to watch that are all produced very well. Here are some of my favorite Netflix Originals that you should definitely watch!
This is a documentary set in the ICU of a hospital that follows different families facing one of the hardest decisions imaginable, which is deciding whether or not to take a loved one off of life support. The documentary is only about 20 minutes long, but within that short amount of time, as a viewer you quickly begin to understand the magnitude of the decision at hand for these families, as well as the doctors who face this every day.
The documentary is put together so well. You begin to put yourself in the shoes of the patients, family members, and medical staff in this ICU and question what you would do in these difficult situations. While it is definitely a hard and heavy topic to focus on and watch, it is beautifully portrayed and shown very well.
The Innocent Man
I love the true crime documentaries on Netflix. This is one of the most recent ones that I have watched, and I finished it in a weekend. This documentary series is based upon two murder cases and trials that happened in Ada, Oklahoma in the 1980s. It's also based on a true book that John Grisham wrote about the cases.
The series introduces you to the defendants in the trials, and you don’t really know whether to kind of root for them or not. As the show goes on, you are shown the injustices and corruption that went on in these men’s trials. It also explores what is now being done by the town to continually cover things up, as well as the lawyers involved and the men in prison's thoughts on getting their convictions overturned.
I Am A Killer
So sorry, but another true crime series! Each episode follows a man who is on death row. We learn about the man’s childhood, crime, trial, and their current (or previous) life on death row. The men were interviewed very well, and it gives viewers a chance to hear a new perspective.
While these men may not be the most reliable of narrators, as a viewer you can tell that there is sense of rawness and authenticity in this series that makes you want to continue watching.
Hopefully you can enjoy one of these shows. Ultimately, there are so many options out there on Netflix, it'd be hard not to find something you'd enjoy.
I do hope that this year I grow closer with my already amazing friend group. In this past year, we have all become such a tightly nit group. However, I am definitely not be opposed to making more new friends, because isn’t that what life is all about? I love meeting new people, and I think that this year I will have many opportunities to do that!
This next year, I will also be taking a couple of tougher classes, which I am a little bit fearful for. However, I think that after having one year of high school under my belt, I can use my time management skills from last year and apply those to those tougher courses. I am excited about the classes that I am taking and hope that I get the most out of everything that I take!
Even though school is about to be underway and I am definitely not ready for waking up at 6:00am, I am so excited for this new school year. Even though there are some fears, I know they will be overshadowed by the awesome things to come!
Dear Mrs. Wood,
Thank you so much for helping me grow as a writer, reader, and person. Your class challenged me in new ways and helped me become comfortable at Washington High School. Every single day a different life lesson was brought up, or a new piece of advice was given that I would take in and think about throughout the day. Reflecting back on my first year of high school, I realized that your class probably had the largest impact on how my year went. You consistently said to get involved, try new things, and know that every single choice that you make impacts not just yourself, but many other people.
That last piece of advice was directly brought up by reading the book Whirligig. I recently went to Saint Charles and passed a store with many whirligigs covering the front yard. I immediately thought of reading that book in your class and the effect that it had on me, You taught me that every person, thing, and action is a "whirligig" in a sense. You also assigned our class to build our own whirligig. Not going to lie, at first it sounded like the most insane assignment ever! However, the more my dad and I thought about it, it wasn't that bad and actually became a fun memory between the two of us that you helped create!
Thank you for being a woman of God that I can look up to. You always have open arms towards your students and seem to find the good in all of them, which I admire. I know that 14 and 15 year old kids are definitely not the easiest to teach, especially a sleepy, tired class like 1st hour! Still, you never failed to make the class upbeat and energetic with costume parties, dances, and many, many games and jokes.
I think that the largest impact that you have had on me was that you pushed me to join a journalism class. I don't know if I would have had the confidence in my writing and storytelling abilities if it weren't for you. You always told my class to get involved in high school, which I also think had an impact on my decision. Thank you for pushing me as a writer and never failing to give me advice and assurance when I was not positive on a piece of writing or a idea. Overall, you made my year memorable and enjoyable, and I know that I will not forget any of the memories made anytime soon!