Scared. Anxious. Sad. Frustrated. Upset. Bored.
These are just a few feelings that come to mind when I think about responses I have seen or I have had during the quarantine that we are in. I have a lot of hope that things will get better, however, that does not take away the fact that we have to stay in our homes. Here are a few things that I have been doing to stay occupied and calm while I am at home.
I have played the piano for about 11 years, and absolutely love it! It is something that is really calming and a great way for me to pass time. With all of this time at home, I have printed out a lot of new songs to play and learn. I have also looked through many old songs that I used to play to brush up on them. I love that I can pick a song to play based on my mood. If I am feeling frustrated, I can pick a song where I can slam the keys and play super loud. On the other hand, I can choose a soft, slower, calmer song to give me some peace.
I am bringing back my favorite pastime from elementary school! If you look online, there are a ton of coloring books and pages that step it up a notch from the ones you would get as a seven-year-old. I usually put a show on TV or play something on my phone when I color. It is relaxing and another way for me to use my hands and get creative without doing a crazy project.
I don’t like painting, so you may be confused as to why it would be on this list. Bored one day, I decided to paint, but not a picture. Taking some inspiration from the internet and one of my fellow BJJTV staff members, Joie, I decided to paint the pockets of a couple of pairs of shorts that I never really wore anymore. I loved it! It was so relaxing, and even though they didn’t come out perfect, I really like them. It was a great way for me to revamp something that I didn’t really think I would like anymore, as well as pass some time. I might like painting after all.
This part of the list may not be accessible to everyone, but it is something I do every day! Having pigs, or any animal, adds structure to my day, and some routine. I know that every day I will go down to our barn and do chores at a certain time. Routine is really helpful for me, and even though pigs may not be a part of your life, hopefully, you can find some other thing to help you have some routine to your day.
Self-Esteem. Body Image. Self-Confidence. All of these things can carry a lot of weight for people, but for others, no weight at all. More than I would like to admit, I care or worry about what people think of me or how they see me, and what that perception may be. Maybe that is because I am a teenage girl, or maybe that is just how I am wired. Only time will tell.
I love being around people, talking, and speaking in front of others, as well as connecting with people. However, this sometimes can lead to my own self-conscious thoughts and worries, and doubts that I am not looking or acting the “part”, or doing what I “should be”.
I know that this is not something that solely teenaged girls struggle with. It always seems to be stereotypically seen that way, but everyone struggles with self-confidence and their image, regardless of age or gender. It comforts me in knowing that I am not alone in not always feeling the most confident in myself.
As I continue to figure out who I am and my perception of myself, it can be hard to try and grasp what other people are thinking about me as well. When that can be negative, it is difficult to deal with, and often leads to me sometimes thinking I should change a certain aspect of my personality or identity, or in a more physical sense, my clothing or the way I look.
For anyone who is struggling with these issues (which I know I’m not alone in), the thing to keep in mind is that the people who truly care about you love your personality and identity, regardless of outside opinion. I always try to keep this in mind with my family or closest friends. They already know me and see me, and they are still there with nothing negative to say. I stay confident in that truth, knowing I am surrounded by people that love my identity for the way it is.
I know that these thoughts and doubts that I occasionally have will not hinder my love of anything that I do, and the confidence we all have!
See you later :),
Woohoo Netflix! I love this TV streaming service! Does it sometimes get very much in the way of things I need to get done? Yes. Will I still continue using the service? Yes.
One reason why I enjoy Netflix is the fact that besides the shows available to watch that are from other broadcasting companies, they have an entire collection of shows, movies, or documentaries that are only available exclusively on Netflix, called Netflix Originals. These are my favorites because there is such a variety of things to watch that are all produced very well. Here are some of my favorite Netflix Originals that you should definitely watch!
This is a documentary set in the ICU of a hospital that follows different families facing one of the hardest decisions imaginable, which is deciding whether or not to take a loved one off of life support. The documentary is only about 20 minutes long, but within that short amount of time, as a viewer you quickly begin to understand the magnitude of the decision at hand for these families, as well as the doctors who face this every day.
The documentary is put together so well. You begin to put yourself in the shoes of the patients, family members, and medical staff in this ICU and question what you would do in these difficult situations. While it is definitely a hard and heavy topic to focus on and watch, it is beautifully portrayed and shown very well.
The Innocent Man
I love the true crime documentaries on Netflix. This is one of the most recent ones that I have watched, and I finished it in a weekend. This documentary series is based upon two murder cases and trials that happened in Ada, Oklahoma in the 1980s. It's also based on a true book that John Grisham wrote about the cases.
The series introduces you to the defendants in the trials, and you don’t really know whether to kind of root for them or not. As the show goes on, you are shown the injustices and corruption that went on in these men’s trials. It also explores what is now being done by the town to continually cover things up, as well as the lawyers involved and the men in prison's thoughts on getting their convictions overturned.
I Am A Killer
So sorry, but another true crime series! Each episode follows a man who is on death row. We learn about the man’s childhood, crime, trial, and their current (or previous) life on death row. The men were interviewed very well, and it gives viewers a chance to hear a new perspective.
While these men may not be the most reliable of narrators, as a viewer you can tell that there is sense of rawness and authenticity in this series that makes you want to continue watching.
Hopefully you can enjoy one of these shows. Ultimately, there are so many options out there on Netflix, it'd be hard not to find something you'd enjoy.