Challenges are overwhelming. Everyone knows the butterfly feeling you get in your stomach when you are about to attempt something for the first time or do something outside of your comfort zone. You might feel sick or even a little light-headed, but often (even if the outcome isn't what you expected) you learn from it.
Being the introvert I am, trying something new is always a daring task that I often avoid. At the end of my sophomore year, I developed a deep love for writing and journalism through my Introduction to Mass Media / Broadcasting class. I decided to turn in an application to be on the Blue Jay Journal TV staff. This may sound not-so-risky to some, but for me, it was a leap that I contemplated taking for months.
My fears didn't come from the lack of ideas I had for stories, or the poor grammar that I have when writing. I knew those types of problems would most likely be solved with time and more experience. It was the fear of others judging me for what I was doing.
I knew that every Friday our weekly show would be played in all of my classes. I feared that when others heard my voice or would see me on screen they would turn and laugh.
To my relief, I have actually had the opposite experience of that. Being on the Friday Show and producing work for this website hasn't been a negative experience at all. I have received more positive comments than I ever could have imagined. People actually read my blogs and tell me in person that they like it! If you are one of them (and you know who you are), thank you! It means so much to me.
Also, to all of the people who have asked me about applying to be on staff, please do! It is so much more than I ever thought it was going to be. I may have only been in BJJTV for just over a month, but what a month it has been! This is my junior year, the world-renowned hardest year of high school, and I can attest to that especially because of Pre-Calc. However, BJJTV is my release during the day. Most of the time, this is the only class that I'm actually excited about going to.
Even with the butterflies swirling in my stomach last school year, I marched bravely into Ms. Turner's classroom and handed in my application for Blue Jay Journal TV. At the time, everything in my body was telling me not to, but sometimes you just have to jump. I am glad I did. Will you make the choice to step out of your comfort zone? I hope so!
As a daily reminder I keep a quote by Wendy Mass taped to the top of a mirror in my room. It says, “Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about.” It may sound cheesy, but it resonates so much in my everyday life and is something I strive to live by.
If this sounds familiar it’s probably because you’ve seen the television show “SKAM”. This drama-filled story follows a high schooler named Noora and her struggles to become empathetic and see things from other people's perspectives. While watching, I wondered if I was treating others in my life the way she treats the other characters. She taped this quote in her room as a reminder to treat others with kindness, so I figured I would do the same.
Throughout my day, when I get angry or irritated, I always try to calm myself with this quote. You can truely never know what anybody else is going though at that specific moment. The compassion you show them could totally turn there day around. I do believe that kindness is always the answer. Maybe this can inspire you do something simliar? I hope so!
I started to get better. I was moving up classes and learning new tricks. I eventually started going to competitions and getting judged on my dancing.
When I came to high school, I tried out for the dance team and made it! Over the past three years I have danced on the team. Kicking at football games and performing at half time are some of my fondest memories.
Although my favorite memory is when the dance team went to Disney in Florida to perform at Nationals my freshman year. I have never enjoyed myself more than when I was dancing on that stage. The lights were so bright I couldn’t see the audience.
It truly is a feeling like no other to dance in front of a crowd. It is my passion in life and something that makes me who I am.